aw, don't worry, you'll move on before you know it, if that's what you want. college really doesn't keep you that busy though, so it probably won't fill the void. just make some fulfilling friends at school. you'll be surprised about the difference in understanding by people in education versus the internet, where you encounter more people with empathy issues or a lack of real life experience, or have retreated into a digital shell and are defensive and volatile due to their own mental instability and search of the security and loyalty their outside life denies them. absolutely nothing wrong with that, it's natural and we all need to see we belong and have support, it's just difficult when many people have struggles in the same place.
but my advice is to take care of yourself first. it's no good to change to save face for others' benefit, because being accepted is not as important as being happy. sometimes the battle for respect is more toxic than the clash. you get so caught up in the battle that you don't even learn anything except how to try and rationalize your behavior and even the people that were trying to teach you give up. it can be good to meet more people that you don't deal with over and over every day for some perspective and more exposure to others. you might think with development issues trying to talk to people is a bad idea, but the more you practice social skills, even if you don't fully understand the cues, you get a better idea of when you're supposed to behave a certain way for a certain situation or person, and that will then translate to your internet relationships because you can translate social etiquette to the screen going by who you surround yourself with.
if you don't have one, see if you can't talk to a therapist on the regular or like a chaplain experienced in your religion if it's a spiritual conflict you have. i say chaplain because any formal sect is going to hijack your religion with their personal views that you might question. there's nothing wrong with questioning what others tell you your religion believes; you should read whatever religious text you follow and let yourself understand it on your own. i'm not religious, but i do know some people pressure you to follow it certain ways and resist outright supporting whoever, but you're 18 now, you don't have to get messed up by expectations people, not your diety, placed on you. if you feel that compulsion, remember that. i don't know for sure that is what lurks behind your struggle, we haven't talked, but i don't know, i feel like you need someone to tell you that they believe in you, and that you can be happy with yourself and attempt some non judgmental guidance. if i suck at that, er, i'm sorry.
anyway kiddo--well--i guess it's sir now, wow. time really doesn't wait. good wishes to your endeavors and just give yourself time out in the world. if people in other social circles start confronting you too, it might be time to look inward. if you find they don't, maybe you should talk to the people you say you hurt. if the bridge gets burned, unfortunately, you should probably sever the tie, it is better for both people. trust is a hard thing to earn even if you do mend things.
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